And when I got home and checked my email... Thirty-Nine rejection notices.
It doesn't get more disheartening than that really. I don't know where my next rent payments coming from, and I'm already slipping behind on my bills.
The only thing of value I have that I can sell is my cello, and I know that unless I can wait months and months for the right customer, I'll never get what its worth. ($13,000 at the last insurance valuation) If anyone wants to buy my cello, let me know asap!!
I don't have a car (public transport is faster, safer and cheaper where I live).
I don't have a TV (my housemate owns that)
I can't sell my computer, its just too important to what I do, and if the internet fairies are nice, could help me make money.
I don't have a degree because I left school to help my Dad with bills (big family)
I don't have any special skills, and I don't have capital to use to start a venture properly.
I don't qualify for benefits, and even if I did there'd be an eight week waiting period because I've never been on benefits before.
What do I have?
More determination to stay solvent and safe than most people have. I will make a living in my city, and I will be good at it.
I will pay rent next week, no matter what happens.
I will maintain my self respect, even if I leave my pride at home.
I will. Because failure is out of the question.